Love?

What is love?
But an illusion engraved by untruth
From youth, we imagine a life that ought to be
Instead of the way it tis
Why do we yearn for something so unreal?
People only love when they need
Not when it's true
Speaking from experience
You can pour and smile and wink and build
a dream within a dream
To work and push and pull
And succeed in creating a life for two
But it tis not true
The end result is one that is sad and blue
Usually for one, because with two
It tis difficult to reach to be
On the same page
I want this but he wants that
So what is love?
I have no lines
I have no product
i have no idea

I Want You to Know

From the moment I set my gaze on you, I knew
That my life would forever change
Now we stand at a moment that's misunderstood
And I'm not sure how to rearrange

All the feelings in my head
They run around in circles each day
I can't imagine all the colors I've shed
Just to convince myself we're ok

No matter how many silly arguments
Or the things we wish were never said
I see you standing in the same place
I'm stuck on a lure I can't defend and don't want to replace

Please let me lick my wounds in peace
I haven't decided to share my life
I'll slap my scars to feel the release
My damage, you're enticed

If there's nothing left to say
And we choose to remain hidden
Don't let me walk away
Shake my fears and fight the path that is forbidden

I need a man who can stand up and say
You're my baby when things are hard
Our life is not ideal and may be delayed
But I'll love you forever even from afar

And I'm as stubborn as a mule
To try to change my mind
is a task only attempted by a fool

haaa smoooth haaa bleww (breathing deep)
You can huff
You can puff
But you can't blow this girl down

I'll jump up
I'll slide around
Attack evaded
Baby I run this town

I run my life
That's right I said
MY life
I may be young
I may be small

But deep inside
My passion's fucking tall
It's enormous
So step up off it
I'll figure this out
on my own

It's what I like
It's what I want
Trust me, nothing will trip me up

And I'm as stubborn as a mule

To try to change my mind

is a task only attempted by a fool

haaa smoooth haaa bleww (breathing deep)

You can huff

You can puff

But you can't blow this girl down

It's Destiny or It's not

I don't believe in love
I don't believe in truth

I'm not convinced the people we meet
Are 100% out to fit the better part of you

I don't believe in fate
I don't believe in destiny

If it were meant to be it would
It would exist without excuse

I shouldn't need to tell you
Do this, then that, and now the other
If it doesn't come naturally
Forcing it won't be any better

If faith meant love
And destiny meant truth

There would need be no question
Or choice in matter
It'd be obvious to you

I'd look at you and know
Gaze into those eyes
Smile and feel
That it's where I need to be
No place else would appeal

I'm not convinced in such
That love is between the two of us
If it were
It'd be obvious

We'd be in the same state to start
Fuck, we'd be in the same county
Stare at each other and promise to us
We'd made it work no matter what

I feel myself slipping
Feel my heart hiding under my sleeve
Not sure I'm where I'd like to be
But not convinced I want a you and me

Let the riddle be known
for those brave enough to try
How do you love someone
When you're not willing to give up your own life

Risk

I'd like to see you take the risk
Instead of me
My back's sore from carrying the way it used to be
This time please
Don't leave me be
Stand up, straighten up, for me baby

The weight of the world
Is almost too much to bare
I try to walk, try to talk
Acting like I don't care
Like it don't hurt me
But it does,
It destroys me

Distance is the fate that walks amongst us
I can't help it if work couldn't brace us in the long run
I'm trying now
to save cash money flow
So this time around I'll be thrice as bold
Take my hand and never let it go
Otherwise this leap I refuse to uphold

Alone, hell no, better throw your hands up
Now down on one knee
Baby let that rock glitter pop
You scared? Well news flash so am I
But I'd rather tremble, stumble, quiver, shiver
With you by my side

So for the last time
I'll say it again
In order for me to jump
You better catch me as my friend
My love, my one, my only boo
I refuse to take this risk
Unless you take it too

Luck

I'm curious to see
Your luck in finding
Another even remotely
as incredible as me
as breath taking as me
as intelligent as me

For another
to encompass
The knowledge of thee
Would end up
Running, perhaps sprinting
For the door to leave

Not many would
Stand and endure
The history you hold
And look pass
The damage under your hood
Your milage too high
A new engine no good

Selfishness gets
You what You want
Money, toys, clothes
Age is relentless
Can't stop the clock
Selfishness won't find you
Permanent happiness
It's only a stop

Muscles and biceps
Gym and contests
At 30, not impressed
Any one can
Have the mind set to win
Work out and work hard
To sculpt and enthrall
Still sleeping alone

Not many will lay
With a face on a single pace
Perhaps for a split moment
You'll entice your component
Still in the end

Your luck will leave
You with remnants of
A friend you
Once told your secrets to
Good luck on your
Conquest to find
Another that encompass
The qualities of mine

Unfortunately for you
I'm one of a kind

Awaken Me

Every time I say I'm done it's a hoax
What I really mean to say is
Damn it I need you the most

You pissed me off so I left
I don't deal with that
I'm a diamond in the rough
These bitches envy that

So go on ahead and buy your damn old dream toys
I'ma run around with your heart n feed it to my other boys
You thought I'd crumble, stumble, tumble
Baby get real
The only thing that's gonna fall apart
is your sex appeal

Wait, what'd you say?
You said you need me too?
Every breath that you take adds another clue
That you can't see yourself with another lady lover
That I'm the one who runs the show
Your baby lover dover

Awaken me
Boo come on get inside my shattered brain
Be my super hero
Reach out and save my fame
Everybody seems to want a piece of me
I can't stand dressing wounds
I don't wanna bleed

Rescue Me Now

I know exactly what I want
I'm constantly reaching beyond the stars
I'm not afraid my tears I'll flaunt
Even if it means reopening these scars

Where's my knight amongst his noble steed?

To come and rescue me
These weakened knees can't stand to bare
the weight that you left
Show me you care

Hurry, this fire breathing dragon refuses to leave

Golden sword drawn with eyes on his prize
Rescue me before my hearts demise

Love is Wild

I'm a beast, I'm a monster
Eyes glaze to red I'll rip apart your word
Eat it, shred it, tear it, devour and conquer
Heart frozen feeling absurd

All my life love was my lure
I stalked it, waited, pounced and gorged
Insatiable appetite that proved no cure
My stomach twists feeling forged

Dear sweet lover
Don't try to hide, don't try to run
I've found my way in, I'm under your covers
Fear for your life I'll torture for fun

I'm a beast, I'm a monster
Pulling you in, shaken to the core
Your will alone I will alter
Give it your all I'll still want more

I'm a beast, I'm a monster

-Jessica

Circle

Hands, Eyes, Walk, Look
To put it so simply my breath you took.
Smile, Nose, Laugh, Hair
My soul is not something I simply share.
Stand, Lies, Talk, Crook
Slip into chaos and feelings are shook.
Miles of roses riffraff to stare
Knees weak and hearts are too bare.
Love, lost, but Love again (still)
No time can deter my passion is will.
Circle, circle, my passion is will.

-Jessica

Change of Pace

I sat at my desk and wished,
not on a silly little star
or on a blinking clock
not even on a bone broken in two (in the hopes the larger half rest between my grip)

the kind of wish that forces eyes shut
mouth clenched, heart race, palms sweat
Oh, I wanted it so bad (that bad)
to feel

Anything.
Besides what my conscious reiterated how I should feel
at any given moment
My heart would not
Take it further than the thought

Until I saw you.
Melting between my physical embrace
Oh, what a change of pace.

-Jessica